Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Background: I've repeatedly threatened to give up on the idea of romantic relationships if my latest interest doesn't work out.
(20:09:27) Me: Matt thinks I shouldn't give up overall if this doesn't work out
(20:10:06) Kenneth: Of course you shouldn't, and you won't even if you claim you are
(20:10:18) Me: I would if I could
(20:10:26) Me: god damn hormones and shit won't let me no matter how I try
(20:10:45) Kenneth: Exactly human nature won't let you
(20:10:49) Me: which bites
(20:11:02) Me: human nature is made to make people suffer
(20:11:03) Kenneth: Haha
(20:11:33) Me: so we're like masochistic by default
(20:11:35) Kenneth: Its also made to give us pleasure
(20:11:36) Me: which is kind of fucked up
(20:11:48) Me: well it ain't givin' me pleasure
(20:11:50) Kenneth: Haha
(20:12:02) Me: so it needs to knock it the fuck off
(20:12:03) Kenneth: No so far it hasnt
(20:12:28) Kenneth: It wont
(20:12:51) Me: only one way I know to make it quit and that kind of has unpleasant side effects that I wouldn't want
(20:13:06) Kenneth: What
(20:13:11) Me: Suicide
(20:13:25) Me: but it has that nasty death side effect that goes with it, so it won't do
(20:13:37) Kenneth: I figured that was it
(20:13:49) Kenneth: Yeah, death be worse
(20:14:13) Me: hell, I'll bet that even if I chopped my dick and balls off and became a eunuch I'd still have the natural drives
(20:14:32) Kenneth: Probably to an extent
(20:14:49) Me: if for no other reason than the natural human drives for companionship and emotional intimacy and shit
(20:14:55) Me: so no matter what I'm fucked
(20:15:00) Kenneth: Not as strong though, but then you'd be a freak who has a hard time pissing
(20:16:31) Me: see, this is evidence that either there is no god or else he's a sadistic asshole
(20:16:51) Kenneth: Lol
(20:17:17) Me: 'cause a nice god wouldn't give people drives that they can't get rid of that will just make them suffer their whole lives
(20:17:54) Me: but evolution would because evolution could give a shit if you are happy or not as long as you pass on your genes
(20:17:57) Kenneth: Ah, never know what future holds
(20:18:17) Me: so by not passing on my genes I'm saying "Fuck you evolution!"
(20:18:52) Me: See, evolution gives me the pain so I kill evolution by not allowing it to continue through me!