Friday, April 18, 2008
I feel like evolution created us to fuck. It, however, built in a self-destruct mechanism so that when your usefulness for fucking is over, you get out of the way for the next round of fuckers. Now why post-menopausal women don't trigger this.... who knows, maybe it is some of the extra shit on the second X chromosome that men don't have. So, given that the way I was raised totally messed up any chances of me ever having sex, I feel like my mind has been trying to trip the self-destruct mechanism but that luckily I still have enough of the survival drive left to prevent it from acting, but that every day I have to deal with these opposing forces in a much more conscious way than I ought to have to.